Sunday, 7 October 2012

Faults

A great way to get to know someone is for them to share their faults with you. Because so often, we see people's highlight reels, and compare them with our own unedited mess of a life. This stunts mutual encouragement and friendship. As Christians especially, since we know we are forgiven, our problems are a testament to God's amazing grace! So today I want to share some of my own faults with you.

A little humorous perhaps, but I have a problem with fiddling. I can't stop myself shifting/moving wherever I am. Even now my leg is shaking constantly as I sit at my computer and type away. My hands need to have something to play with. You can laugh, but if my family is anything to go by, it is quite an annoying habit to endure for so long. And it get can have serious consequences. Like when my mind felt like "fiddling" with a fire by throwing in a deodorant can. Luckily no one was hurt.

More widespread, and perhaps more acceptable is my fault of lying. I will lie for no reason. Often justified with a weak paranoia that if I tell the truth, it won't be accepted and will cause a hassle. It seems a defence for self-consciousness but it just erodes away the trust built around my life. I wish that someday I can start a sentence with "On my word" and be trusted because I never lie.

To top it off, like a cherry on top, is my arrogance. It's a trait that is hard to talk about, because I fear I'll be arrogant about my arrogance. It rarely gets rebuked by my friends or family because of its subtlety, but sometimes it's scent becomes a stench that I am ashamed of. It leads me to disregard the skills and blessings God has given me, attributing them to myself. It leads me to judge/put down/insult others that I should be loving instead.

So there you have it. Three of my many many negative traits that create disharmony with others and with God.

The great thing is, other people might reject me, but God won't turn his back on me, God won't severe the relationship, he'll pick up my life and slowly put back the pieces he originally created, until they become the perfect being they were meant to be. Without sin, without fault.

13 comments:

  1. Just gotta ask, why is it that god won't turn his back on you "unlike with others"?

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    1. I have experienced times, and i'm sure you have too, where my faults have lead to friendships being broken or hurt. Thats because we humans are all too quick to judge.

      Just clarifying, "others" isn't other gods, it is other people.

      Thanks for pointing that out to me.

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    2. I got that it meant other people, so I want to know what makes you special.

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    3. Oh, I understand now. I see now that it is a badly worded sentence. What I meant was other people might reject me, but God will never reject anyone.

      God loves everyone, and I am a sinner just like every one on this planet. God's grace is amazing because it doesn't matter who you are, or what you've done, it is all his work, not our own.

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  2. you are invited to follow my blog

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    1. Thank you Laura! Never knew my faults would be so "insightful" :)

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  4. Look, I find there's strength in admitting one's faults in itself. Actually, more than admitting. More like finding. Because everyone has faults, just most- including myself -find it hard to point out exactly what they are. So kudos on pin-pointing what you feel are your most destructive faults.

    However, just on the 'God will rearrange my pieces to create the perfect being he intended me to be' point. Look, I'm atheist, it's just my personal opinion, but I think if you are going to believe in God, you have to accept that he created you warts and all, all your faults would have been of his design, right? So why would he go against his own choosing to remake you into a perfect being. I just don't quite understand that bit.

    However, I think this is a fairly well made blog entry and will give you due credit for it.
    (sorry about the deleted comment, there were some issues)

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    1. Thank you. I really appreciate your kind encouragement, and I'm glad you took the time to tell me your thoughts on my post.

      It's a paradox, but I trust it's truth, that God is all-powerful, but still I can sin and turn away from him. That is what I believe causes my faults. So you could say my faults are my own fault!

      It's great not to argue with an atheist but just have a friendly chat! Thanks again for your compliments!

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    2. Actually I think it is rather admirable that you were honest about your faults. We all have faults and I would say that most people try to hide them. I know what mine are and am always praying for help in changing myself for the better.
      I enjoyed this post and your thoughts!
      Blessings!

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    3. Thank you Leann. This post helped me a lot, like you said, as writing down my faults really motivates me to slowly be changed by God's grace.

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  5. Admitting your faults is half-way through getting rid of them.

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    1. That's what I thought Ghadeer! But three days on, i still see them lingering in my life everywhere.

      Thanks for dropping by!

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